From Anxiety to Empathy, My Clairsentient Awakening

From Anxiety to Empathy: My Clairsentient Awakening

    So I'm just now realizing that I'm clairsentient. I have many spiritual gifts, but this one is very new to me. I've always been strong and guarded; my feelings have almost never played a role in my life until recently. For the last three years, I have been battling intense anxiety. It has been so intense that I've found myself in and out of doctors' offices and hospitals trying to figure out what's wrong with me. My anxiety has not been an easy experience. My chest sometimes hurts or feels heavy, I'll wake up out of a deep sleep with my heart beating out of my chest, and my throat will get tight. I also feel unwell in large crowds or around certain people and places. These are just some of my experiences. But this medical anxiety has been some serious shit here lately.

    About a month ago, my father was diagnosed with lung cancer. My dad and I have a pretty good relationship, but I wouldn't say we are very close. But he is my father, so in a way, I guess we are close. I say all of this to explain that, over this last month, watching him go through this experience has made me realize that I am experiencing many of his symptoms.

    My dad and I have a pretty good relationship, but I wouldn't say we are very close. But he is my father, so in a way, I guess we are close. I say all of this to explain that, over this last month, watching him go through this experience has made me realize that I am experiencing many of his symptoms, and have been for a while. 

    In 2018, I was shot in my chest. I will save that story for another day. But my gunshot wound is in the same exact spot where my father's tumor started. I am not one to believe in coincidences at all. I see this as more of a synchronicity. 2018 was a very impactful year for me following my shooting, and I assume this is a very impactful year for my father.

    The chest area is an extension of the heart chakra, which is the fourth chakra located at the center of the chest. This chakra is associated with love, compassion, empathy, and healing. Any trauma or significant event affecting the chest area can have a profound impact on the heart chakra, influencing our emotional and energetic well-being. My experience of being shot in the chest was not just a physical trauma but also a deep emotional and spiritual one, affecting my heart chakra in significant ways. Similarly, my father's lung cancer, with the tumor located in his chest, directly impacts his heart chakra.

    I recently asked my dad how long he has been going through this without telling anyone. He told me his symptoms started three years ago. Crazy, right? That's when anxiety found its way into my life. Since making this correlation, I have been diligently working on my heart chakra, day in and day out, and reminding myself that this pain and worry are not mine. I have also been working towards transmuting this energy for my father because if I can feel it, I can heal it.

    Understanding my clairsentience has been a revelation. Realizing that my anxiety and physical symptoms might be tied to my father's health has been both astonishing and empowering. By working on my heart chakra, I aim to create a healing space for myself and, indirectly, for my father. Each day, I focus on grounding myself and separating my energy from his, visualizing a healthy flow of love and strength between us.

    This journey has taught me the importance of self-awareness and energy management. It's a reminder that our connections to loved ones can be profound and that healing can transcend the physical. By acknowledging and embracing my clairsentient abilities, I am learning to navigate my own emotions and sensations more effectively while supporting my father through his illness.

    Each day, I practice mindfulness and meditation, focusing on my heart chakra to cleanse and protect my energy. I visualize a bright green light, the color associated with the heart chakra, enveloping my heart and spreading warmth and healing energy. This practice helps me distinguish between my feelings and those I might be picking up from others, particularly my father.

    Additionally, I've started using affirmations to reinforce my boundaries and strengthen my energy field. Phrases like " I love trusting my intuition to guard my heart."I love protecting my energy," and "I love releasing what is not mine" have become some of my daily mantras. These affirmations help me stay centered and focused on my own well-being.

    This experience has also deepened my empathy and compassion. Understanding that my father's suffering has had such a direct impact on me has brought us closer in a unique way. I am more attuned to his needs and can offer him support from a place of genuine understanding.

    In the end, embracing my clairsentient abilities has been a transformative journey. It's not just about recognizing a new spiritual gift but about learning to harness it for healing and growth. By doing so, I am not only helping myself but also providing a source of strength and healing for my father.